In the wake of the recent tragedy; I am finding it hard to write about some of the things I was hoping to during the holiday season.
I almost lost my baby on Christmas eve when he was just 24 hours old – and now all these families have lost their children right before the holiday -and it’s very hard for me to write about my personal story which ended with an unbelievable outcome. An outcome that will never happen for all those families.
Of of my closest and oldest friends – someone who I share most everything with – lives within 2 miles of Sandy Hook Elementary school and my heart grieves for her and her community. I’m mostly grieving for all the families that have to face this holiday – for all the people that have to do something with all the Christmas presents for children who are no longer here or their Hanukkah presents from the past week; from my own experience, I know this sometimes falls upon the fathers as it did with my own wonderful husband. He had to put all the Christmas presents in our son’s nursery and close the door before I was able to step foot in our house. I don’t know how people find the strength to do these things -but they do, and they are all the more amazing for it. I know this isn’t about presents – it’s about how to move forward.
So until I am able to process this – I might be silent on my blog for a while. I will be back – I just can’t write as of yet.
Please love everyone around you – and don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them. All of my friends here – I do love you – it doesn’t matter that I’ve never met most of you; but you all have touched my life and I thank you for it.
Take care ~