I’ve talked about my love for David Bowie a lot on this site over the years. And to most everyone that knows me – I’ve talked that talk. I’m obviously heart broken at his passing on January 10 (2016, for those reads in future years). I feel like a part of my youth passed away quietly – but I walked the same earth that he did during his lifetime, and there’s a small consolation in that.
I can’t quite articulate my feelings right now – it sounds dramatic and sappy, but it’s too raw right now. And I don’t want to let go this feeling inside nor do I want to open up to the world so it can look inside. It’s special to me and I want to savor it. And I think I want it to stay my own. I’m going to be selfish in that aspect.
I’ve read so many beautiful tributes on how this amazingly talented inspiring man has touched the lives of so many. And like black licorice – people either love or hate; few just ‘liked him ok’. Despite where you come down on the Bowie/Black Licorice side (I love both), you cannot deny that he brought about strong feelings in people. And is not that the point of art?
I never wanted to be David Bowie – I just wanted to escape into his music. And wrap myself in the fantasy of his ever changing worlds. I wanted that with me -I hoarded it away and nurtured it over the years. I often wonder if that’s what David Bowie always intended – that people don’t become ‘like him’ but rather become enlightened by the fact that you can just be, and you can adapt, and you can change – and that there is nothing wrong in being chameleon. He could; and he did.
I always imagined he was the one driving like a demon from station to station – always searching…always one step ahead of his own demons. Whatever they were – they inspired him to create a world of music that was uniquely his own.
Thin White Duke, Goodbye. You changed my world and my own perceptions of myself- and I love you for that. I may never have gotten to meet you in person but I will always have, forever, your music. And you have always held a part of my heart.